The latest on me

It's been a couple of years since my last long term relationship. Dating is hard. I mean it's really hard. Not only is it incredibly hard to find a suitable partner. (all of you who have heard my crazy dating stories can attest to that), but I have to be cognizant of my daughter. I have to show her what healthy relationships are, what healthy dating is, and show her that she isn't defined by the relationship that she is in. I also have to show her that in my every day life as well. I don't ever want her to settle for being second best, settling on something that isn't 100 %, or crossing oceans for people who can't even jump a puddle for her. I want her to grow up charitable, loving a generous, but I want her to be able to put herself first with out being self centred. So I try and use that as a guide. What would I want my daughter to do in my situations. If I base my decisions on what I would want for her I am hoping that my decisions will be right. Sometimes it's just too hard to see the forest for the trees. So I've withdrawn a little from the world to take stock of what I have and what I want. It's also been necessary as I have stopped smoking (26 days) and in many ways I am a weak woman. It's been a wrestling match with smoking for 22 years or so off and on. In my withdrawing from the physical world I suppose it gives people a chance to connect with me rather than me reaching out to connect with them. We will see how it works out. So for now I'm single, but I'm smoke free so we will count that as a win.