I'm still here!

I'm NOT DEAD

Okay so I kinda fell of the Earth for a little bit. I know I know you missed me right? I've been busy. I spent a week with families kids and need a few days to recuperate. Then I had to testify in court. No I have not been charged, the other person was and I was a witness. I can't speak much about the case considering it's still going on and there is a publication ban. It wasn't so bad speaking with the crown, but the defense grilled me for over two hours. It was probably one of the most arduous things I've ever had to endure in my life. My mantra was he is only doing his job, this is not really a personal attack. But my back was already guarded because my sexual orientation had already been brought up. I hope I portrayed a look of calm demeanor, but in this day and age with whom I choose to have romantic relationships with is really kinda irrelevant isn't it? I managed to keep my cool, but something really REALLY bothered me. Just about the time he said “Well, he apologized didn't he?” I was glad that it was his ending question because shortly after I left the court house I lost my composure. Crying alone in my SUV is not the highlight of my life. The last person who assaulted me apologized too. Does that somehow make it okay? I mean hell doesn't I'm sorry just cover anything now? And how about the other things that he didn't apologize for. In fact I'd like an apology, some admission you did me wrong and are doing me wrong by forcing me into a situation where I have had to re-live some pretty shitty situations. It wasn't this assault that really bothered me it was the other ones I've gone through that are much worse. So I've spent a few restless nights full of night mares and flash backs. Yay. But on the bright note, I've spent some time with my bodhrán (Pronounced Bow Ron) and managed to be able to make some pretty decent noises out of it. Be still my Irish heart. So here is a clip of me cranking one out. Enjoy.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Q_J0SRm0DbM